Mark P. Schowalter

 

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A letter to God that I need to forward...

Posted: 12/13/2008

Hi Mark-
Neal's teacher called this morning and told me that Neal was not doing well in class- very nervous about going to Children's Hospital.  Then he told her he knew he would be OK though because he wrote an email to God-
I found it in my Drafts folder,  unsent of course--
This is a terrific depiction of who my boy is.  He is 10, he is amazing and has the biggest, fullest heart of anyone I know!

 

 

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Hi God it is me Neal. We start all our prayers that way so I thought i should start my letter that way too. 
I am writing to you but i probably don't even hafe to .  Mom says that you are all around us in every person and in everything, so that means that You can see me write this
That is good because i don't know your email address.

I am writing to ask a favor but i feel very selfish about it.  See but we pray every night for people and you answer all of our prayers.  You help but  you don't always seem get it the way we want it, but you do always make thing s work out somehow.  So i want to ask you for a prayer,but it is for me is that ok to do? 

God, I have a problem with my throat, it hurts and it makes it hard to breathe.  the problem is that i don't always tell my mom and dad the truth about how much it hurts.  i get scared a lot, but my mom can tell when I am. 
 
Here is my prayer, my prayer is that Pastor Chuck says a prayer for me at church on Sunday.  In church I always hear him say ""and we pray for so and so who was a recent pachent at Bellin hospital having a...hip raplacement".  And all of the people in our church hear it and they go and pray for the sick person.  I want him to say a prayer for me like that at church, is that bad? but i can't ask him it is to selfish of a thing to ask.   
It would be terrible if he saw this letter to you or if I asked him to do it, too selfish. So you just need to whisper in his ear.  He will listen. 
I know us praying helps those other people.  See when we pray at home for others we also send cards and pictures  to them and they are always sending us thank you cards back, so i know it helps them, because they say it does in there letter. 
It helped me, Mr Tucker sent me a card and it made me feel so good and like everything would be OK.
I will not be in church on Sunday. But God can you just tell Pastor Chuck to say a prayer for me?  I need him to just somehow know that I want a prayer for me on Sunday because I am a little sick, and it all hurts more than I say and that sometimes I lie about it so people don't have to worry. 
I know there are lots of people sicker and who need prayers like I do or even more than I do, So I will keep praying for them to.  but God loves me too and mom says i have something special to offer the world and that she can't wait to watch me grow. 
I know i will be OK.
thanks for reading this when I wrote it, now I don't have to send it and  now you can decide what to do.
thank you God
I love you to
Neal


PS- Mom came home from church just now.  She said Pastor Chuck mentioned me in his prayers and that she felt kinda warm after she heard him say my name. 
Thanks you god.  Good job god.  is your name capitaled  I bet it is. 
So, good job God, I hear my parents say  good job when I do somthing good so i thought  you should too.
thank you from Neal


Disabled and/or Handicapped?

Posted: 11/17/2008

Creating disabled and handicapped people?

 

Who or what is a “disabled” person?  Does a one-legged blind guy who is a chronic diabetic which has resulted in 5 bypasses a qualified “disabled” person?  Not so according to the Social Security standards simply because I can and do work at my job and career more than 10 hours a week.  So it isn’t a far left-handed move for me to wonder and ponder this question when my wife and I see many folks use a “handicap” ticket to park close to the door of a local shopping store, run in to and out of the store, and obviously display that they are not disabled and/or handicapped?  And that is only one issue involved with the question and discernment of who is disabled and/or what is a handicapped person.

 

I define disabled as something I cannot do.  I define handicapped as something I “don’t” want to do.  I think there is a big difference.  Now let me push that definition a little farther.  If being disabled is something that I “cannot” do because of physical limitations, etc. then whose responsibility does it become to provide and take care of me?  Because I am disabled due to my diabetes, blindness, amputation, heart bypasses should I expect society to take care of me?  Am I supposed to blame society for my unfortunate luck in life?  Is there substantial grounds for me to expect that now, since I am unable to see, walk without a prosthetic, etc. that I should quit and expect that others will take care of me, support me, and make sure that I am guaranteed the same standards of and/or quality of life that a person who is not disabled and/or handicapped?  I think not!

 

Allow me to place my disclaimer here at this point… I do know and understand that there are people who suffer tragic adversities in their life of which they have no control and must be attended to because of their needs.  They have always been there and they are our responsibilities to care for and see that they can have a reasonable quality and/or standard of life.

 

I am concerned that we as a society no longer teach our children how to be responsible for them.  We also teach them that the lowest possible common denominator is and will always become the standard by which we will judge our quality of life.  Society is not rapidly pushing teachers and those who work with children to a place where they cannot criticize, they cannot correct, nor can they challenge children to better themselves by working hard, practicing to perfection, and then learning to adjust to the adverse events that do and will happen.  We have already taught them to be “handicapped”.

 

It frustrates me when I learn of fully capable people mis-using the systems we have in place to make others responsible for their actions and in some cases the unfortunate tragic adversities that happen.  When I went blind I did not blame others for my poor choice of diabetic mis-management which caused the retinopathy.  Nor did I blame or seek to place responsibility for my cardio-vascular issues and leg amputation on things like certain chemicals used for preparation and preservation in food sources.  I realized and understood that my illnesses and consequential issues were things that happened to me and that I, personally, would need to deal with them.  I could not nor would not expect society to take care of me.

 

If and when we teach children that competition is an evil thing: that a child is not suppose to cry, or feel left out; that everyone is suppose to feel good all the time; when we lower the standards of accomplishment so that the poorest worker in the group gets the same acclaim for a task as the one with energy; we have taught them to be disabled and handicapped.  Society has taught children by the many role models of people who refused to work, who feel that they deserved to be taken care of by society, that society owes them something because life hasn’t gone exactly as they had thought it would… then we have created disabled and handicapped people.  When we demonstrate to our children that we no longer have to worry about any choice, any decision right or wrong, whether we make good or bad decisions; someone else is responsible and someone else will have to pay and someone else will take care of you.

 

As a disabled person working full time in society I constantly find that it is my responsibility to continue working to raise myself up to the standards of society rather than expecting society to reduce itself to the lowest possible common denominator.  It was not society’s fault that I am who I am… it is totally mine!  It is my choice to work to improve myself, to better my skills, and to help others realize that the potential of what I accomplish lies within me and is not an expectation that someone is going to give to me.  I may be disabled… but I am fully handy-capable!

 

Think about this and have a great day… especially the next time you see someone park in a “handicapped” spot and go running in to and out of the store?

 


My favorite typewriter... gone!

Posted: 10/06/2008

The Typewriter

 

This past summer we were cleaning out the garage.  I found my old I.B.M. Selectric III typewriter on one of the shelves covered in dust.  The dust cover had some rips in it.  When I touched the rubber-band holding the chord together it disintegrated.  It’s blue color faded as it was 28 years old.  I dragged it over to a workbench and plugged the chord into an outlet.  It purred for a moment and then when silent.  Was it running?  Perhaps just really quiet?  I punched a key.  No response.  I punched a bunch of keys.  Still no response.  I accidentally hit the correction key.  It worked!  But that was it.  Nothing else worked.  I unplugged it as it was starting to smell hot.

 

Yes, I am talking about a typewriter… the machine we loved and coveted before the age of computers.  Anyone who went to college before 1985 either owned or at least had access to a typewriter.  When I went to seminary in 1980 I was given this beautiful I.B.M. Selectric III typewriter because I had pounded three other old fashion manual typewriters to death.  This Selectric III was the Cadillac of typewriters at the time.  Many professional offices had either the Selectric II or III model.  When I arrived at seminary for my first semester in the autumn 1980 I was envied by most of my classmates.

 

I had received my Selectric III as a gift from a very dear friend who knew of my old manual typewriters and what had happened to them.  She knew that I would need a dependable typewriter for the many papers that are to be written in seminary.  She knew that I had trained on the I.B.M. Selectric model when I went through classes learning to be a blind adult.  Knowing all of this information Ms Lucille Schmidt went out and purchased me my beautiful blue I.B.M. Selectric III typewriter.  I was so totally awed when it was delivered to my parent’s house where I was living.  Now, here it sat on a shelf in the garage collecting dust.

 

I pulled the plug from the wall outlet and re-wrapped the power chord finding a new twist-tie to hold it together.  I put the old ripped dust cover back over the machine making sure that it wasn’t burning because it smelled extremely hot.  The typewriter had been fixed a couple of years earlier.  I had asked the repair shop if they would have use for it?  “Would you like to buy it?” or “Do you know anyone looking for a typewriter?” or “should I put an ad in the local paper ‘for sale’?” I asked.  My repair person informed me that he had probably two dozen such machines sitting on the shelf of his shop for sale at about $25-35… and they were all in working condition.  Mine wasn’t! And it would be costly to fix.  I knew what had to be done.

I picked up the heavy old beast and headed for the curb and the pile of garbage collecting there.  The curb is some thirty-five feet from the garage.  As I lugged my old friend towards it finally resting place I started to think about all of the papers I had written.  I started to remember not only all of the papers I had written; Professor Art Merril’s Old Testament four-page specials, Dr. Bryant’s famous ‘Constructive Theology’ paper that got written, and re-written, and re-written again and again, and many other seminary papers… not to mention the many journal entries which eventually became part of my book “From Eagle to chicken and Back”… but also the many papers that my friend and classmate Jo would type to make some extra money while attending seminary.  I suddenly found myself turned around and headed back into the garage carrying my dear old friend, the Selectric III typewriter.

 

I started to look for another place on the shelf for it to rest in peace.  Then something inside of me told me that I would never get it repaired, I would never ever use it again, and it didn’t work.  I turned and headed back towards the curb and the bigger pile of garbage now collecting.  Somehow that thirty-five feet from the garage to the curb seemed an infinity.

 

I was about ready to set it on the pile when… there was another last minute flash of memories.  Remembering my dear friend who had purchased the typewriter for me because she had faith in me accomplishing my call to be a Pastor… remembering the night that kids had re-arranged my cabin room at camp and when I went storming in to get something I tripped over the typewriter stand holding the Selectric III and actually being able to hit the deck first so that I caught the typewriter and saved it from getting damaged… and again, all of the journal entries, term papers, and letters to friends.  I just really had a hard time placing it on the pile at the curb for the garbage pick-up.  I looked back at the garage?  I rubbed my hand over the slick hard plastic and metal casing.  I looked back at the garage.  It really didn’t take up that much room.  I started to set it back down.  Another glance towards the garage…

 

Alrighty then!  Somewhere in my mind I determined that if I set it down and ran real quick back into the garage it wouldn’t know what was happening and I could close the garage door and not have to look at it.  Wait a minute?  I couldn’t really see it anyway… but my mind’s eye could, and would, and I would know it was out there.  But it was beyond repair, had out lived its usefulness and it was time to let go.  I set my beautiful I.B.M. Selectric III on the garbage pile, started to shed some tears, and slowly walked back into the garage.

 

An hour later I smiled when my wife told me that someone had come along, saw the typewriter, and took it.  Well… it doesn’t work, doesn’t pay to have it fixed, and… but on the other hand, if they want it?  It’s theirs!

 

Many young people have not a clue what it was like to type papers on a manual or electric typewriter.  Perhaps they have seen one in the basement of their parents’ home, or in a picture, or even in a museum.  If you were lucky you might have had a typewriter with an automatic correction key which simply meant that if you caught your mistake you could back-up manually and fix it.  No spell-checker to indicate that you have misspelled a word, use incorrect grammar, given you choices for other words, etc. which our modern day computers do for us.  The typewriter was simply the extension of our thoughts through our fingers onto the keys, through the machine, and onto paper.  And if you wanted or needed a second copy, you used carbon-paper.

 

Long lived my I.b.M. Selectric III typewriter with the self-correction key… for twenty-eight years.  Wherever it is… job well done old friend!

 

Mark


Patience to be a patient

Posted: 09/04/2008

Lord grant me patience to be a patient!

 

In my 51+ years I have spent much time in hospitals and visiting doctors.  I don’t like hospitals unless of course I am the one who is visiting someone who is a patient.  I don’t have the patience to be sick let alone confined to a hospital bed.  You can imagine my frustration then about two weeks ago when I ended up spending about four hours in the emergency room of the local hospital.  I didn’t want to go!  I didn’t think I was bad enough to waste the time of medical professionals.  But I will also admit that hospitals are necessary and that my life has been saved more than once being admitted as a patient.  When they do get a hold of me I am thankful that they can and will do everything within their power to help me get better.  The rest is up to me, my attitude, and my believe in a healing Jesus who makes me right with God.  So if I am going to be a patient I will bring my humor to the forefront and attempt to make everyone comfortable and relaxed.  Following is part of my journal entry for that visit to the emergency room.

 

Author’s note:  My hat is off to the professionalism and efficiency of the many talents of the emergency room staff at Lakeland Hospital in elkhorn, WI.  They were very courteous, very kind, very gentle, and very tolerant of a patient who does not have the patience to be a patient.  Thank you for helping me in my time of need.  Mark

 

August 20, 2008

August is over!  Yeah right.  What a waste of a month.  They finally figured that perhaps I must have had some strange strain of bronchitis for just about the entire month.  I have taken several antibiotics attempting to squelch a nasty cough that resides in my throat and more specifically in my vocal Chords.  The one that worked is commonly referred to as “Z-pack”.  It is a five day administration with about a 2 week residue effect.  It seemed to kick whatever this whatever was suppose to be.

 

Today, Wednesday, August 20 I passed out during a coughing jag at lunch.  I have been coughing for about three weeks now.  In the last week the coughing has left me with a low blood pressure and several different dizzy spells.  Yes, I know there are those who will tell you that I am dizzy always.  Perhaps they are right.  However, these dizzy spells left me dysfunctional.  The coughing jag at lunch caused me to lose consciousness for a couple of seconds with my face falling into my plate of food.  As I came to my senses my wife handed me the telephone and told me to call the doctor.  I called the doctor.  She has a tremendously great influence and power over me.  The doctor told us to be headed for the emergency room and that the doctor would call ahead to tell them of my arrival.  I went but only under protest.  Got there, checked in, and fortunately they weren’t busy so I got right into a bay.

 

The first thing they want me to do is strip!  Everything but the shorts.  “Nope! The whitey tighty’s were not coming off!”  I asked why I needed to strip since the problem was my cough located in my vocal chords.  The admitting nurse was pleasant enough and so I did… strip that is.  Of course then they give you the gown that says it all:  “I’m not humble… see!  Yes, it’s my ass!”  I hate those gowns!  I sat down on the edge of the cot, they took my prosthetic leg off, and I was a captured emergency room patient.

 

My first medical visitor once the admitting nurse got done with all of her questions was a cardiology tech with an E.K.G. machine.  They needed to make sure that I wasn’t having a heart-attack or some sort of congestive heart failure.  The tech quickly slipped her hand beneath the hospital gown and started to slap sticky patches all over my chest.  Another quick pass with the electrodes and she flipped the switch.  In less than five minutes she had her report printed out, was disconnected, and on her way out of the room.

 

.  Next on the list comes a radiology tech with the portable X-ray.  She popped the ER cot into one of its most uncomfortable positions and starts taking all kinds of pictures of my chest. 

 

“Look here… it’s up in my throat… that’s where it has always been.” I attempt to explain pointing at my neck.  They take pictures of my chest.

 

Passing through the opening in the curtain to my ER bay the X-ray tech and IV tech pass.  She introduces herself as ‘sue’ and that she is the best of the best in putting in IV’s.  She is a joyous person and seems to dance as she prepares to do her job.

 

“We have to take some blood and we are going to do that by starting an IV.” 

 

And so I gotta ask, “Why?” 

 

And she said, “Because it is the way we do things around here.” 

 

“But I don’t want and/or need an IV!” 

 

“You’re going to get one anyway!” 

 

And so the argument went.  I told her I was a hard stick due to too many previous IV’s from other hospital visits which is one of the reasons I didn’t want an IV… and for being the best of the best (we verified that by others in the emergency room) it took her three hits to get one to work.  She was just about in tears of frustration when she got the third one to work… and then got so excited that it was working that as she started to dance around my cot she tripped and almost fell on the floor.  I had tears in my eyes attempting not to laugh!  She withdrew her blood samples and started the saline solution.

 

The IV tech packs up her equipment and heads out of the bay passing another nurse on her way into see me.  She is carrying a large hypodermic needle filled with something.  I ask… she explains.  They want to give me 4 mg of morphine. 

 

“Why?” was my pleading inquiry.

 

“It will help you relax so that you don’t cough as much.” She said with confidence as she injected the morphine into the IV tubing.

 

“But I don’t want any morphine nor do I want to relax.  I want to get rid of this nasty cough and go home.”

 

“this will help you feel better faster.” She assured.

 

“Have you noticed that I haven’t been coughing since I’ve been in here?” I stated.

 

“See, it’s working.” as she withdrew the now empty needle from the IV tubing.  Then  she smiled and said, “There… that wasn’t bad was it?”

 

I was about to say something but went silent as this wonderful feeling that I call the ‘human puddle’ took over my body.  I felt like a puddle lying there on the cot thinking that perhaps I had just had an accident in bed.  My wife Sue took my hand and tried to comfort me from having lost that battle.  At that point I really didn’t care.  I could have cared less.  Morphine has that kind of effect.  lying there pretty defenseless you could have ignited my toes on fire and I wouldn’t have cared.  I hate morphine… that feeling of not being in control.

 

Now, for entertainment purposes, or at least I was thinking it was, the next nurse comes in carrying a miniature bowl.  She wants me to cough something up into this container. 

 

“But you just gave me 4 mg of morphine so I wouldn’t cough?” 

 

She smiled kindly and looked at Sue with some sort of signal, turned and placed the container on the bed stand, and left.  Again passing through the opening is coming another nurse with another container.  She wants a urine sample. 

 

“Ma’am, you just shot me full of 4 mg of morphine and now you want me to pee?”  I looked at her and her cup and said, “I’ll be lucky if I pee a week from next Tuesday!”  She smiled and looked that looking signal at Sue, left her container next to the plastic bowl, and left the bay as well.

 

“We will need a urine sample from you before you leave today.” She reminded me as she walked out through the curtains.

 

It suddenly got quiet in my ER bay.  There were no nurses asking questions, bringing  containers, or requesting things.  Sue turned on the television in the room hoping that we might find the Brewer’s game that was taking place.  It wasn’t on the hospital’s cable system.  However, we did notice that better than television was listening to the conversations of another patient in the next bay.  The patient wasn’t sure why he was there.  He also couldn’t understand why they couldn’t reach his wife at home.  He, like me, didn’t wish to stay.  Whereas they had taken my fake leg so I couldn’t escape… he kept attempting to get out of bed, IV’s and all.  They called in a Security Guard and it became his job to keep this patient there.  It did become rather entertaining as this Security guard was good!

 

Listening to the conversations throughout the emergency unit along with feeling the effects of the morphine, I started to dose off to sleep.  I’m not sure if I started dreaming? Or perhaps hallucinating because of the morphine? Or a good combination of both… and suddenly the room is filled with a wonderfully delightful presence.  The emergency room tending doctor came in.  I noticed how cute she was. She was actually drop-dead gorgeous! 

 

“Mr. Schowalter?” she said softly thinking that perhaps I was sleeping.

 

“yeah right!  I’m awake!  I’m still here.  What’s happening?  And who may I ask are you?” 

 

She introduced herself as the attending doctor.  I’m excited!  I am now thinking of how much fun the ER could be.  I have to admit that I thought drop-dead gorgeous doctors like this only existed on those television hospital shows.  But here she was, in living color right before my eyes.  She started to go through her litany of the usual and routine questions.  Since I have been a patient so many times I almost knew the chart and questionnaire by heart and could answer before she finished the question.  She got done, took the E.K.G. chart, and left. 

 

Now I am deciding that the effects of the morphine along with this gorgeous doctor and that I have my drop-dead gorgeous wife Sue with me… perhaps my trip and visit to the emergency room isn’t all that bad.  I started to relax back on the cot which because of the morphine was feeling much better.  The conversation between the Security guard and patient next door had turned to a piece of apple pie that had arrived on the lunchtray, and I started to doze off again for another nap.  Who could ask for anything more?

 

But then another male nurse walks in.  He is carrying this funny-looking Q-tip.  “Mr. Schowalter, we need to get a culture, please?” 

 

“fine.” I responded thinking they were going to finally culture my throat which has been the problem all along. 

 

“Hmmmm…no.  that’s not where we are going to get the culture.  We need to go up your nose.” He informed us.

 

“How far?” I quearied.

 

“About 6 or 7 inches.” 

 

“Do you knock me out for this?” 

 

“No, you’ve had morphine.” 

 

Silently to myself I am beginning to think of some nasty things I could say.  I took a deep breth and said, “Alright, get it done!” 

 

I didn’t know there was a passage that far up my nose between my eyes and beyond.  And once he was up there he had to twirl it around for 10 seconds.  I stuffed my hands beneath my body so that I wouldn’t slap this poor fellow and held on for the duration of the culture.  Sue held my arm to reassure me, too.  It darn near drove me crazy, off the cot, and out the door!  Ah yes, remembering that the gorgeous doctor was coming back in to see me… I survived the test and took a deep sighing breath as the nurse withdrew all of that Q-tip out of my nose. 

 

It was quite awhile before the gorgeous doctor returned.  In the meantime, I took a nap, sue watched television, and the Security guard ate the piece of apple pie.  Then the doctor arrived!  She came back in and explained the many tests they were taking.  They were suspicious that I might have pertussis… otherwise known as “whooping cough”.  So, until the labs come back, I was to change my antibiotic and go home with some loaded cough syrup… and stay home. 

 

“what do you mean ‘stay home’?” I wanted clarification. 

 

“Well… you are sort of kind of almost, but not really under quarantine.” She said with a smile that could have melted the Artic circle and definitely melted my defenses.

 

“What about Sunday?” I had to ask. 

 

“You ain’t preaching.” She said. 

 

“And are you going to come along home and be my personal physician?” (no, I really didn’t ask that question… but thought it!) 

 

We continued to converse about the many other possibilities of what I might be suffering from that would include such a nasty cough.  Mind you, I’ve now been in the emergency room for over three hours and still haven’t cough.  Then she informed us that her 17 year old daughter had this pertussis about 5 years back.  I called her bluff.  I looked her right in her beautiful eyes and said…

 

“You aren’t old enough to have a 17 year old daughter!  Now it was my turn to smile for the first time during my visit in the emergency room.  My wife Sue slapped me for embarrassing the doctor.

 

First she accused me of not being blind.  Then she thanked me for the compliment and said I could go home.  So I did! (but not with the doctor)  Sue helped me get dressed shedding the awful gown and returning to my jeans and T-shirt.  When I stood up off the cot and returned to having my prostetic under me I suddenly needed to empty my bladder.  They got their urine sample but I never did cough up anything for that lab sample.  I signed on the dotted line and headed out the door… wibble wobble to and fro because of the effects of the morphine all the way to our van in the parking lot.  What a way to spend 4 hours of a Wednesday afternoon.

 


Moon Beach Camp ministries through the eagle

Posted: 06/16/2008

When one opens the cover of the book there is a photograph of the Moon Beach eagle.  This eagle resides at and on camp.  It shares its nest with its partner.  for the last several years the camp has also enjoyed the experience of fledglings growing throughout the summer camping season.  They grow, learn to fly, and move on... just as we grow, learn to fly, and move on.

 

Moon Beach Camp is one of two camps in the Wisconsin Conference of the United Church of Christ.  They belong to an organization called the "United Church Camps, Inc.", an instrumentality of the United Church of Christ.  Both Moon Beach Camp and Pilgrim Center have provided much time and space in my own spiritual growth... thus the many images of the eagle included in my book.

 

Recently I spent a couple of days at MBC with a work detail from my congregation.  Not knowing of the specialness that lie in wait for me, I was along to "supervise" the work.  I knew that I would not be pouring cement or splitting wood as these are dangerous for a one legged blind guy.  However, the Lord had different tasks for me while at camp.  I sat and listened.  I had the privillege to sit and listen to two different people's story about their journey through life.  It was a tremendous humbling experience, one story of and 84 year old gentleman who embellishes the word gentleman and the other, a younger woman who was there on retreat for her journey from "brokenness to wholeness".  Below is a note that I received from her following our time together...

 

Hi Mark- It's Annie- You know your drinking buddy up at Moon Beach- yeah I know it was just coffee but it sounds cooler to just say drinking buddy-- anyway,
I was snooping around on line and found your site.  Nice site! 
I write terribly so be prepared...
I saw that you can request prayers too.  Well, I have one...see I met this amazing man at Moon Beach.  He sat with me, and talked with me about family,
friends, God, the wind, coffee...Through his eyes, which incidentally do not work here on this earth but definitely work to look into ones heart, through
his eyes,and his companionship I was able to see my situation so much more clearly.  What I'm trying to say Mark is THANK YOU for using your gifts on me. 
I hope to visit you one day soon down in your beautiful church.
I am off to Moon Beach again July 16-19- I will be thinking of you a great deal during that trip, as I have since I returned.  I am so grateful to have
met you.  I really do hope to visit soon.
Mark you played a huge role in a really great accomplishment.  I made it 60 hours and 50 minutes without a flashback!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Exactly what I needed
to fill  me with the strength I need to fight on.  BRING IT ON!!  Thank you Mark Schowalter- thank you

In Christ (and all things caffeinated)
Annie

 

God doth work in mysterious ways using the gifts that we possess.  many times we find ourselves in the right place at the right time for reasons we'll never understand... but will realize with the fullness of knowledge that we can always hope in sharing the glory of God. (Romans 5:2)

Peace & prayers,

 

Mark


It's wednesday... Hump day!

Posted: 05/28/2008

 What happened to the month of May?  Cooler than usual for wisconsin yet the signs of spring are clear.  The grass keeps growing and keeps my wife busy on her lawnmower.  she finds a place of saboth when she is riding her mower.

 

Tomorrow, May 29th it will be 15 years that I have been married to Sue!  Happy anniversary Dearest!  These have been the best 15 years of my life.  thanks!  I cannot begin to imagine life without you.

 

I often times wonder and contemplate peoples' priorities?  I belong to several service organizations whose intent is to help those in need.  The rewards of fulfilling someone's need so outweighs the struggles of peoples' hidden agendas and priorities.  Somehow I believe that folks need to refocus their attention on what they can do for others rather than complaining about what is in it for themselves.  My faith journey and life's experience continue to point me in the direction of service to others... and Yes! sometimes even at the cost of my own fulfillment and/or satisfaction.

 

Recently I have been spending time with a friend who is nearing the end of her life.  In her dying she is teaching me much.  Her faith story is not one of glory, high publicity, or even quiet accalades.  It is a faith story and journey of conviction, love, and grace.  many and all could and would learn much from her in this process of dying.  Her love for the Lord, her graciousness to others, and her quiet presence provides strength, fulfillment, and satisfaction to her family, friends, and those who know her.  I would wish that "thus for the grace of God... there go I."

 

And having said that for this Wednesday morning I am also reminded of all of my family and friends who have made such a difference in my life.  Growing up in a Christian home as a "preacher's kid" has taught me well.  others come first!  I do believe that my folks have taught me well that the needs of others are important and significant.  "When you have met the needs of the least of these, you have met me" says Jesus in the gospels.  I believe that and try with every fiber of my body to live that.  yet, i also know that it requires the support of my family and friends, the cooperation of many who work with me at things I cannot do by myself, and especially those special folks who drive me around.  You who are in my circles of ministry I love you and deeply appreciate your gifts.

 

I would love to hear from others.  If you would like to comment on anything I have written either here on this blog or in my book "From Eagle to chicken and Back" you can do so by writing to me at 'schowalter@genevaonline.com'.  I can't guarantee a rapid response but I will at some point in time.  Please title your note in the subject line "Hey Eagle & dobies" so my spam filters don't swipe your note! (grin)e

 

Peace & Prayers,

 

Mark


Thoughts for a Wednesday afternoon

Posted: 05/14/2008

   Dealing with any major disability takes courage, inner-strength, and many a good friend.  It is always important to be able to realize ones limitations and then seek ways to work through and around the issues that make those limitations.  Once again, I was reminded today of the limitations of my blindness.

 

Because of my blindness I am not able to drive.  This morning my wife needed to be at the hospital for some routine tests with instructions that she would not be able to drive herself home.  I couldn't drive her myself.  fortunately we have an excellent friend who was able to drive for both of us and the trip was accomplished.  and the tests all came out fine.  Thanks!

 

Friends are special gifts that enable and help me to be as strong and as inter-dependent as I am.  We all need special friends to help us.  It makes the job so much easier and generally takes less time.  Many hands makes light works.  And rather than get all upset by the reality that I cannot drive I give thanks to God for our special friend Liane who was able to drive for us today and make the job so much easier.

 

Peace & prayers,

 

Mark


Omelet party?

Posted: 04/20/2008

Mark, 

   I wanted to let you know that I just finished reading your book & I thoroughly enjoyed it.  I could really feel your personal emotion in every chapter
that you wrote.  Very inspirational to everyone who has ever reached what they would consider a "low point" in their life in which they thought there was
no return.  Mixed with insight & humor, I would recommend this book as an "excellent read".  If you ever host an "omelet making" party, please include
me on your guest list!  

                                                                   Sincerely,

                                                                   Tamara 


Colleague reads and reviews book...

Posted: 04/10/2008

   

Disclaimer: I know the author, however most of the information in the book took place prior to my making his acquaintance. 

 

     I found "From Eagle To Chicken And Back" to be an enjoyable read. While the book was written in a way that the reader could drop in at any place, I

chose to read it in a linear fashion, beginning to end. It was an easy read with a large enough font and the double spacing made the text feel uncrowded.

I particularly enjoyed the caricature renderings at the beginning of each chapter. The style of writing is casual and flows well, one gets the sense that

the author is speaking to the reader rather than writing to be read.

 

     The subject material was moving and inspirational as the story was told of impending blindness, blindness itself, and the journey to move beyond blindness.

All throughout the story the over-arching strength of the author's faith is quite evident as he relates the steps of self discernment, re-discovery and

learning to his faith and how that faith provided strength and affirmation both in times of weakness and in times of accomplishment.

 

     My emotions were touched by his story, I smiled with the author as he related his first trip to the bathroom in chapter two and I cried over the loss

of his first two seeing eye dogs in chapter six. I marveled at his courage as he tried things that most people would have relegated to the category of

things they did before they lost their sight. The revelations of doubt and personal emotions could not have been easy, yet because of these revelations

the story becomes much more poignant. At the end of the book I found myself wanting to hear more of the author's story, I longed for more details of each

struggle and success. 

 

     One question nagged at me throughout the whole book, "Would I have picked up and read this book if I didn't know the author?" The truthful answer is "Probably

not." That being said, if I were experiencing some sort of loss or radical change or trauma in my life, and the book were recommended as a helpful read,

I would have picked it up and would have found it tremendously inspirational and helpful. I would recommend it as a book that will help not only one who is

affected, but as a help for those who work to support the one who is affected. In particular I liked the definition of Handicapped versus Disability, as

it opened my eyes (no pun intended) to the very real difference between the two. The way the author related this definition to things that "normal" people

choose to do or not do and ways they choose to be or not be, I found very insightful.  All in all anyone who reads this book will find something to gain

and nothing to lose.                     

 

                                               Dean R. Moberg, Friend and Colleague of the author.